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April 16, 2005

Celebrate Poetry with The Heretik: Poems and Prose about Family by Joe Ivory Mattingly

YESTERDAY WAS TAX DAY
And a strange vibe was in the air. Seems like the day when people figure out where they stand with their money and their government puts them in touch with where they stand with everything else. Or not. So often we lead lives separated from the ones we should love more, including our selves.

Every day is tax day: The world forever demands we consider where we stand in relation to others. When the world is most taxing, I find my relation in poetry,

Consider this post your chance to post whatever you like about poetry here and elsewhere in this world, to drop in favorite poems and songs in part or in whole that mean the world to you, to do whatever you like. Thanks, Joe.

so much
of a picture

depends upon
the frame

what can
exists

but not
without its name

“In The Name of the Father”
Joe Ivory Mattingly

the living
rise

daily
from the grave

days of the past
unknowing

what the future
holds in its hands

a flower
tossed toward

tomorrow
grazes my face

"Ezra"
Joe Ivory Mattingly

one thing
anything

but as how
you see it

white as
snow

pale as
ice

white as
vanilla

a boring
ice cream

dark as
doom

a shadow
in my room

dark as
night

when we
dream

choice
the destiny

of
words

"Carlos"
Joe Ivory Mattingly

man the
wondrous

pig climbs
A tree

to spy
heaven

in the
splendor

of your
words

"Will"
Joe Ivory Mattingly

ashes on my forehead
ashes burn my throat
i have seen the world end
end not once but twice
first time didn’t kill me
then i died again
dying i do it so very well
well dying pity the living
the living here in hell

"Thomas"
Joe Ivory Mattingly

you are
in me

and I
in you

brooklyn
eagle

echo of
paumanok

father of none
father of all

"Walt"
Joe Ivory Mattingly

I have had many poetic father and many mothers as well. I thank them all who unknowing have given me all.
Joe Ivory Mattingly

What is in a name? Nothing and Everything. I, Joe Ivory Mattingly, have but one genetic father given the first name Charles and the middle name of endless southern history Magruder. I heard about Mattingly and Magruder and the Civil War and the First Families of Maryland and the Ark and the Dove and endless tales from my genetic father throughout his life. He had, as my older brother would put it, an infinite capacity for outrage. And I might add a laugh. My father was an actor given to the soul of the word made flesh on the stage. An actor who became a lawyer to flesh out an income. Somewhere in there he met my mother. Geraldine Cecilia Ivory. Known as Jerry.

As most mothers do, my mother admitted a father in her life. His name was Joseph Ivory, which explains how I got the name. (My older brother got stuck with the Charles Magruder Mattingly. Ha.) My grandfather Joe Ivory was a founding member of the International Brotherhood of Electrical Workers Local 3. For this badge of honor, he got himself locked out of many a job because unions were not looked upon with kindness in the Twenties and Thirties. Workers together may have power, but still someone would diminish it. When my grandfather died, my mother was almost too strong. She gave my brother my grandfather's tool box, but she said I would always have his name. I am Joseph Ivory Mattingly. I take a small pride in my middle name, no more than that. So I honor my grandfather.

My grandfather was given to few words. He spoke more by what he did. I miss him, as a man misses all his family in his heart, if not in his words each day, if not in his acts each night. I remember when he would open his tool box, something would get fixed. And if that tool box squeaked when it opened, he immediately would put some Three in One oil to the offending hinge. You deal with something when you see it. He never said it, but this he taught me countless times. He would smile every time he did it. We went through a lot of Three in One oil in our time.

My brothers and sisters will tell you I am not like the other Mattinglys, I am more the Ivory. Different in build, different of mind. My older sister likes to remind me that I said not a word for the full first three years of my life and have not shut up since. Guilty I plead to that, but innocent of all else. I am not so Catholic as the rest of my family. If someone says they believe in original sin, I say why believe in only one. Such statements would disquiet both sides of my family, but I am what I am. I am Joseph Ivory Mattingly.

I am more the Ivory. From my father I have been given the capacity for outrage, from my mother the ability to withstand the outrages within and without with humor. From some unknown Mattinglys and from some generations known in the past of Ivorys, I have inherited the gene for alcoholism and expressed it in the joy and sorrow of my life. I am more the Ivory, so I see the joy even in the sorrow.

What is in a name? A bond that can't be severed, even as we hold a knife in our hands. Today is the birthday of my brother Jim, who made his peace with me long before I made my peace with him. My niece Jeri has a birthday this week, as does my niece Sarah. Jeri is named for my mother. Sarah is the child of two cultures. All the world runs in her and she is strong in her stride. Today I miss you all in body, but am with you always in spirit.

My grandfather now and again would open his wallet. He would hold it open like it held the world, like he was catching the wind for a moment. I would look at what he had in his wallet. The union card. I remember the picture of him with more hair. I remember the driver's license. A chauffeur's license. My grandfather took work as a chaffeur driving cars for others when others would not hire union workers. When I would ask him why, he wouldn't say anything for a minute. Or so it seemed. Then he would put his hand on me. I remember the imprint of his hand on my shoulder, on my life. Why a chauffeur's license? Because what you have now, you may not have tomorrow. Then he would hand me a buck. I would ask him what is that was for. He would say for nothing. Such nothing means everything to me now.

April 16, 2005 at 06:05 AM in VOICES IN MY HEAD | Permalink

Comments

That was by far, your greatest post.
Your prose is especially moving as was the insight into the soul of Joe Ivory Mattingly, the man who just popped up it seems.. but who has been around for a long long time.

Posted by: blondesense Liz | April 16, 2005 at 07:03 AM

You just made me cry, but in a good way. I could see the pictures as you wrote the words. On a lighter note, we are soul twins because I too know how to use a can of three in one oil and my house is never without it. But you know what? I'll never use it again without thinking of your grandfather and his tool box.

I am the daughter of an alcoholic. I try to understand.

Thank you for sharing some of you with me.

Posted by: pissed off patricia | April 16, 2005 at 07:46 AM

Oh my. I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face after reading this post.

I'm so glad to know you, Joe Ivory Mattingly, even just a little. From my soul to yours-- big invisible hugs are winging their way to you right now.

Posted by: Tild | April 16, 2005 at 08:10 AM

I too am sitting here with tears in my eyes but for a reason different from the rest...you are my uncle, in name and everything else. I'm learning things about this family that i have never heard before. Keep writing, if not for you, then for me.

Posted by: sarah linfield mattingly | April 16, 2005 at 11:37 AM

Pleased to meet you, Joe Ivory Mattingly.

Posted by: Idyllopus | April 16, 2005 at 02:53 PM

Sarah,
You have a very special uncle.
Hold his feet to the fire and encourage him to tell you all that he can.
What a lovely message you left here, you too made me cry....but again, in a good way.

Posted by: pissed off patricia | April 16, 2005 at 04:54 PM

Wow. Good for you. Keep going.

And good for Sarah.

Posted by: bitchphd | April 16, 2005 at 06:14 PM

Your best post bar none.
Sarah, uncle Joe is the only man I ever really loved. You are blessed amoung women to have him in your family. Stay close darlin'.

Posted by: Missouri Mule | April 16, 2005 at 08:45 PM

What a wonderful post--we all try to leave some of ourselves behind, and I think you got me closer to thinking it's possible.

Posted by: Amanda Marcotte | April 16, 2005 at 09:21 PM

Those doubtful that electronic media could ever match the intimacy of "the page" should read this. Absolutely wonderful. And I know I'll be dreaming of Winnie and Grace (my much-missed grandparents) tonight.

Posted by: Grace Nearing | April 17, 2005 at 12:42 AM

I think you have some of the Magruder the actor in you as well, Joe Ivory of Many Faces and Names. And an infinite capacity for outrage, which we all benefit from.

You have many gifts. Thanks for sharing them here.

Posted by: KathyF | April 17, 2005 at 01:14 AM

Wow. Joe, What a great post, Way to go. Keep it coming.

And good for Sarah, nice to meet ya.

Posted by: Earl Bockenfeld | April 17, 2005 at 07:59 AM

way to go, joe ivory

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